I know how lucky I am to have two healthy children, but I longed for a third. I still can’t believe how fast my two are growing – many of my friends still have lots of time to enjoy with their toddlers. However, fears for the future and the impact on the planet left me consumed with indecision. I had counselling, which helped. My husband has always been content with two but happy to have a third if I wanted, so we tried. I got pregnant. Within a week I was wrought with an intense fear for the future and the impact of the climate crisis. I spoke to some friends, and at length to my husband, and had a termination.