Kaufman hated looking in the mirror (she still avoids it). She felt something was unsafe about existing in a female body. When she tried on clothes in a store, it was as if a thick fog descended over her, and the boy surfaced to express revulsion at what she was wearing, at her body. Other times, he was furious at the crying girl in the box and wanted her to disappear. The nice lady and others tried to shush him. So many voices, so many opinions, all of which overwhelmed her.